Little things maybe not
Well its been four months since you left. It's still hard to beleive that your not coming home. I have you here and in my heart but its not the same thing. I miss not having you here to meet me in the mornings with a greeting and a hug and kiss. Wondering how my night went. Then you standing in the door to say good-bye and wave when I leave for work. Even after all the years we were together you never took me for granted and showed it in little ways. The fact you would make a point to get up in the morning to say hello and stay up at night to say good-bye.
I went out and stared to take down the tomato cages and get the garden cleaned up. I knew you had sat out there for a week on your milk crate staking and tying up the plants after you planted them. I offered to help because I could do it so much faster but you said you had more time than money and you could do it. I tried to get other things caught up so you wouldn't be worried about trying to get it done before we went on vacation. So I hadn't paid any attention to what you had done as far as caging the tomatoes. Well we could have had a hurrican and they would have still been ther when we got back. You had put pvc pipe as stakes on each side of the cages and hammered them about six inches into the ground. Then used your plastic tie to secure the cages to the stakes. Needless to say I didn't get it al done.
I have someone coming to blow out your sprinker system for the front yard and the enbankment to. It was one of those things you knew how to do but when I asked you to show me how you would try to do it after I went to bed or get up before I came home and do it. You took pleasure in the fact there were things you knew how to do that I didn't. I understand it made you feel needed. Which you were even if you hadn't done these things. You always kept tring to maintain whatever you could still do. You always said you didn't have patience. but ho about the summer you decided to put in your underground sprinkler in. You couldn't use a shovel like you used to because of your back but you sat on you milk crate form months digging the trench for the sprinkler with a screwdriver and a garden trowel. That was we could save the money it would cost to have had installed for our vacation.
Then I went to run some errands in Big Dog and he decided to bring back memories too. Remember when we were in the redwoods a few years ago. We had stopped to ride the gondola through the canopy of the trees. Then when we came back out to leave Big Dog decided he wasn't ready to go yet. And he wouldn't move. Well I was backing out of the driveway when he got partway ou and decided he didn't want to leave home. I just remembered what you did and played with him a couple of minutes and away we went with no more problems.
We had so many things to do with cars that if I follow your lead I should never panic. The time the Ranchero's distributor cap filled up with water in mid Juli and died on me going onto the Memorial Bridge. I got a push to the other side then walked home and waited for you to get off work. It didn't take you long to figure out was wrong even though you never could figure ou why. The distributor cap was lackig a vent hole but why wait till Juli to pull a stunt like that? Then the time both valve covers blew off at the same time. You thought you had kille me since I had my head under the hood looking when it blew. But when the smoke cleared you discovered it had enough force it had blown me back against the house. I couldn't hear for about 2 hours. but you had the destinction of knowing somebody that had seen something like that happen. You finally found one guy that had even heard of it happening before. Then the time we were going to Bobbie Jo's when she lived in Texas. Somewhere in Wyoming the oil pressure started acting funky. It would drop like a rock then come up some for awhile then drop again. We continued on our merry way to Minden Nebraska then dropped down through the tornadoes in Kansas and continued onto Texas. When we left down there I had been wanting to see Carlsbad Caverns since I was a kid. So we went to western Texas and I showed you wer I went to first grade then onto Carlsbad Caverns. Turned out I had only lived fifty miles from there when I was a kid. Then with oil pressure still acting up we headed home. But we had talked about going to Bryce Canyon again since you hadn't been feeling well the last time we were there. I was willing to forgo that and get on home but not you. It was worth the trip Bryce Canyon still had some snow on it. The contrast between the red rock and the snow if beautiful. When we finally got home and you took it to Orofino to get it worked on it turned out it was only the sending unit. But it sure kept us on our toes the majority of the trip.
Then the time the thermostat went out in Tok Alaska. You did stop to get that worked on but all they did was laugh at you for thinking they would have the part for a V-10.So what are you going to do. You left the radiator cap loose and we drove 2300 miles home. Then when you took it to the shop they informed you that you couldn't have run it that far because there is a sensor that will turn off the motor after so long if you try to run it that way. thank goodness that sensor wasn't working either.
I went out and started Old Yellow too. He hadn't been started since you left. I could hear you telling me to only floor the gas once to set the choke. Then don't touch it again. Well I had to do that twice. But then he fired right up and didn't even die on me. I need to get him some gas and put some of your Seafoam in it as well as stabilizer. I don't want him sitting all winter on empty. Then if I can get enough nerve I need to take him out to the dump with a load. Don't get excited its only real trash. The sink you took out of the bathroom and some yard wast. I know you probably had plan for the old sink but since I don't know what they are its going. Sorry!!
You used to get so down because you thought you weren't doing your share around the house. Then get irritated because it took you longer than it used to to get things done. You didn't stop to realize between a few physical things you wer also working on a shoestring budget and doing things the hard way in order to save money for the trips we so enjoyed when I could get off work. You did get in over your head trying to redo the bathroom but it will get done eventually. But you were to proud to get help. The morning I came home from work and you were sitting on the couch looking so pathetic. Like you were wearing baseball mitts. The mastic you were using on the tub surround dried a little quicker than you were expecting and it didn' spread near as easy as you thought it would. Then your oxygen tubing had gotten into the mix and you had no idea how to get it off. I had to laugh but you didn't see the humor . I should have taken a picture you would have gotten a kick out of it later. Youd id when I took pictures as we were being towed by the tow truck in the motorhome and you hadn't thought that was funny at the time either. I went and got some mineral spirits so we could get you cleaned up.
The only thing that irritated me about your stubborness was I had got you to get mask to wear for when you were sawing or using glues abd such. But would you wear them. NO!!! But you weren't stubborn just determined.
Well baby I hope you realize how much you did and still do guiding me through each day. I know I still rake backwards and fish upside down but something we just have to do our own way. I know Bobbie still talks to you and gets advice from past converstaions just like I do. We remember you everyday and love you deeply. Well baby I have to go take care of some of those little things you were always doing or try to find someone who works cheap. to do those little things you wouldn't teach me to do. I know you thought I did too much as it was. But to much is never enough when you care and love someone as you should well know since you did more than your share. Close